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Keep it flowing

energy stays in motion

riding waves of my emotions


wading waters when will I see

the highest heights

the depths below the sea

all the pieces

parts of me



everything in between

The two is one

and the one is none

All the buzzing

starts with BE

- Nathan Barna -

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Updated: Jan 31

Growing your awareness is about growing your capacity to see things as they really are, not just through the filter of your beliefs and perceptions.

The way that we perceive ourselves and what goes on in our lives -- i.e. the stories we hold that have largely been fed to us by our parents, our "education," and society -- shape the way we react or respond to the internal and external experiences we have. These stories also influence the meaning we give to these experiences which trigger and reinforce thought and emotional patterns, for better or for worse.

The more you grow your awareness, the more you're able to see how these patterns play out and the stories that drive them.

This is important because most of the stress that we experience can be traced directly back to the beliefs that we have that give rise to the meaning we place upon things which determines what kind of physical, mental, emotional, and/or spiritual reaction or response we have to whatever internal or external experience we're presented with.

To give some practical examples:

This could be how you react/respond to missed lift in training or competition. It could be how you handle challenges in your relationships. It could be how you manage your finances or what you choose to spend your money on. It could be how you make your career choices and how you approach the work environment.

As you grow your awareness you may find that the same situations bring about completely different responses. What used to make you angry or feel anxiety are now no big deal and may even reinforce a new state of inner peace.

This is when you begin to move from reacting to responding.

Reaction is typically out of your programmed beliefs that you may be unconscious of -- something happens and then there's an immediate trigger (car cuts you off and you automatically take it personally and get angry).

Response happens when there's a gap between the stimulus and the way you consciously choose to respond -- something happens and you witness what arises in you and make a choice as to how you go about handling the situation (car cuts you off and you realize its no big deal and that other person's actions don't have to have an effect on you).

When you move from reaction to response you are now beginning to take more personal responsibility for your life, and therefore you gain more control over how the internal and external experiences affect your state of being. This allows you to maintain a state of equanimity even in the most challenging circumstances.

As an athlete, this means that you're not adding unnecessary stress to the system and therefore you'll have more energy, vitality, and resources to focus on training and recovery and performing at the highest level possible.

Not only this, but as you continue to develop the witness aspect of your self that sees everything but is involved in nothing, you may come to find that there's an underlying awareness that pervades everything and that is not just localized to your mind and body. The more you identify with this pervading awareness, the more your sense of self expands beyond just what you have been conditioned to label as your "self" encompassed in this bag of skin that goes about life. As this sense of self expands, so does your domain of what you have influence over. This means that you gain more freedom to create more of what you want in your life.

Real magic. LIFE Magick.

There are many ways to develop this capacity of awareness, from meditation to breathwork to just seeing what situations create pain in your life and using that as a catalyst for growth. Either way, the aim is to become less and less identified with the ego "I" and more identified with the witness witnessing it all.

If you want to learn some more about this, I recently made a video on Instagram you can watch here.

Happy responding :)

With love,

Nathan "Responsibility" Barna

Another quote from C.G. Jung:

"The average man can never be successful, because, by definition, he is average."

I've made it part of my life's work to study extremely successful people and people that are labeled as geniuses.

The truth that I'm continuing to uncover and explore within myself is that we are all geniuses in our own ways. Rather, we all possess an innate genius that has the potential to be expressed.

Before I continue I want to make it clear that being a genius has nothing to do with how many books you've read, how many years you went to school, or how many letters you have past your name. All of these things are very helpful in developing the skills and lexicon to express and amplify your genius, but genius itself isn't something that can be created through these means. Frankly, books and schooling have killed more geniuses than they've ever fostered.

Your genius is already within you, patiently waiting to be embodied.

And this embodiment doesn't come with the addition of more skill or intellect, it comes through the letting go of all the ideas that reinforce the belief that you are separate from the same creative capacity (Genius) that created you and the entire universe. This belief ultimately puts a limit on your potential and gets in the way of your ability to act as a vessel for spirit to move through you to allow for you soul's expression.

Therefore, tapping into your genius is a matter of letting go of the concept of yourself to make way for the expression of your Self; your soul; your highest potential.

So what's the best way to do this?

Simple: Follow your heart. Follow your passion. Surrender to the flow of life.

Move into the challenges of your life as if they are the greatest gifts you have ever received -- because they are.

This will initiate your Hero's Journey where you will come face-to-face with all the parts of yourself that are holding you back from BEing the genius that you already are. Through this journey you will also learn the skills and ideas that will help you express and amplify your genius.

As Joseph Campbell said, "the cave you fear to enter holds the treasure you seek."

Your genius is unique to you. This is why it can't be taught.

And just as the expression of that genius is unique, so too is the path to (re)discovering it.

This is one of the common threads I found in nearly all of the greatest human beings that history has remembered: they were all presented with seemingly insurmountable challenges and instead backing down they took the call to adventure and used their passions as the tools to carve their masterpieces from the otherwise indistinguishable blocks of self-limiting illusion.

The more you chip away what you've identified your personal self to be for so long, the more you gain access to the creative potential that creates universes -- because you are that, too.

This is your genius.

If you hear the call, take it.

And don't be afraid to own your genius. We're allowed to admit to ourselves that we're smart after years of study, but its considered taboo and self-conceited to own up to what you already are...

I see you.

With love,

Nathan Barna

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