It's Okay Not To Be Okay

Dear Diary,

This past year of my life has been a balance of working as hard as I possibly can to realize my dreams while at the same time deepening my surrender to exactly the way things are without attachment to a specific outcome.

Not gonna lie, it's been a challenging path to walk, but I wouldn't be in this place and in this state if I chose not to follow my heart -- even when it continues to take me right to my edge.

One thing I've learned along this journey is that it's not always supposed to be sunny and 75 degrees. The storms, the darkness, the heat, the cold -- they're all okay too. And not just okay, they're all beautiful in their own way and they all have something to show us.

I do a lot of work helping people overcome their challenges and tap into potentials that they didn't even know existed. But the big paradox is that people come to me with their problems and my job is to show them that there were never any problems to begin with.

You see, every "problem" is an admission to the Universe (Big G O D) there is something in your life that isn't exactly how it's supposed to be. The more you identify with your ideas about how you think things are supposed to be, the more problems you'll create to uphold that identification.

In other words, every time something isn't how you think it should be, you create a "problem" that needs to be fixed. And this process can become so habituated that you'll create problems just so you have something to fix. This process happens largely unconsciously.

But what if there were no more problems because everything is exactly how it should be?

That doesn't mean we don't take action. It means that we're no longer operating out of a sense of lack, unworthiness, or not-good-enough-ness. Rather, we're coming from a place of wholeness and abundance seeking more wholeness and abundance. We serve ourselves and others not because there's something wrong, but because the act of service is a service in itself.

It's okay not to be okay. It's even okay not to be okay with not being okay.

Some people run away from the big waves; some people become really good surfers.

Allow what is to be what is and trust that what's meant for you will be for you as long as you're willing to do the work you're called upon to do.

With love,

NB